in line for execution
watching others strapped in, terrified
one by one bodies keeling over
bodies falling over lifeless.
Being led to the chair
being strapped down in dread.
I am much more courageous
than I feared I would be.
Seeing the crowd gathered,
I face my death with grim resolve
surprisingly calm
feeling the jolt
feeling the pain
as it increases
burning my flesh
and my awareness passing beyond…
I remembered this during my Intro to Christian Ethics class today. We were learning about the mystical body of Christ. This is a teaching of Paul’s, the key text being Colossians 1:17, “God is before all things, and in God all things are held together.”
Is the mystical body of Christ only a metaphor, as in all these separate individuals making up the body of the Church; or is Paul really speaking of an ontological understanding of being, as in a relational concept of being? Western understanding is that being is the sum total of all things, but this is problematic. Life is more than what we can see, touch, and quantify empirically. The mystical body is therefore not about things.
Edmund Husserl states that “consciousness is always consciousness of something.” Subject and object are always given together, but being includes both in relationship.
Subject & Object in Relation = Being
Conceiving of God as a thing is idolatry, reifying, ‘thingifying’. But God is not a thing. Paul’s mystical body is relational: the whole is greater than the sum of its parts. God is closer to no-thingness than to somethingness. As someone once put it: all we ever get to see of God is his backside as God passes by—every time we try to focus on God, God disappears.
Every thing is contrasted by the dread of our own death, the potential of our own nothingness. There is no “I am” apart from “I am not.”
This understanding makes clear some baffling statements of Jesus: “Where two or more are gathered in my name, there I am among them.” He doesn’t say, “where one is, there I am,” because he is in the relationship between them. “In as much as you have done to/for the lowest ones, so have you done to me.” It’s relational:
This understanding leads to the realization that Christ’s resurrection was not of the physical body, but of the relational body of being. This realization is most easily seen in love, especially erotic love where one merges with one’s lover and goes outside one’s limited bodily experience.
Some concrete illustrations of this understanding:
Friends function as mirrors to the self.
In fetal development the mind doesn’t develop without interaction with the human community.
Ecology is the queen of science. Modern physics understands relationships at the macro and micro level to be a symbiosis of subject and object.
The relationship is more important than the objects in relation. Basic reality is:
God, Ourselves, and Our Neighbors are all Related
We always have problems whenever we try to collapse this triangle.
Thus, the end of my poem is
I wake up.
This Old House, continued
I came up with a catchy quote the other day, but I suspect it’s not original: “The purpose of life is to learn how to die.”
This was stimulated by a discussion I’m participating in at a local congregation on the topic of teleology, or the question of life’s ultimate purpose. Before you read the discussion contributions, you might want to first read the sermon talk-before introduction. This is all part of Rev. Susan Ritchie’s series of sermons entitled, “Our House, Our Theology,” which I also began reflecting on in this blog last month.
This most recent discussion and sermon is actually part three in the series. The first part was on theology, or Unitarian Universalist understandings of God, or G∞d, or the Holy. The unifying theme in all our various concepts of divinity is that we hold each other accountable for them, whatever they are. We recognize that our construct of that which is greater than us has a lot to do with who we are and how we relate to the world. Rev. Ritchie compares this to the foundation of the UU house in which we members live.
The second part in the series was on soteriology, or salvation. (I’m using traditional theological terms with the understanding that they are historically what have been used to label such topics, while also recognizing that many UUs today would be unfamiliar, if not uncomfortable, with the baggage they carry.) This second session stimulated a lively online conversation, touching on our concept of grace, comparing ‘salvation’ to ‘enlightenment,’ and sharing personal life-shaping experiences. Rev. Ritchie compares this to the roof of our UU house.
This week’s topic of end goals has wound itself throughout the reading and reflection from my first week of classes. (This integration is typical of seminary study, and one of the things I love about it.) In my Intro to Christian Ethics class I learned that there is no experience that is not interpreted; in other words, the only way we know the world at all is through language, which is culturally informed and imprinted. It also follows that the only way we can be self-reflexive or know ourselves is through language as well. Our instructor used the example of Helen Keller as illustrative: until she realized that someone was spelling the word ‘water’ on her palm, she had no idea that there were others in the world like her, she had no individual self-concept. I’ve heard before how infants are supposed to have no understanding of the separation between themselves and their surroundings. Our teacher mentioned that Buddhists view this as not having a self-identity until we’ve told our first lie. There’s isn’t the only philosophy that aims at returning to nothingness or merging back into the impersonal ground of being.
Yet I can’t help thinking that human life is meant for something more than returning to the place where we began. This brings me back around to the discussion on teleology, in which I said that growth is central to my understanding of life’s purpose. If an individual self-identity—and, more importantly, the wealth of relationships made possible by that conception—is something we grow into, why would we think that the goal of life is to get or grow out of it? That seems a bit backward to me, but next Tuesday I’ll be in a class discussion on the ethical implications of these things, which the instructor has already hinted at. I’ll let you know more as it strikes me!
Oh yeah, and Rev. Ritchie compares teleology to the door to our fine UU house.
Jumping on…
Well, I guess I’ve officially jumped on the bandwagon. I’ve got my own blog…
What turned me on to blogs? Doonesbury has had characters using blogs for some time now. Plus, I like Tom Tomorrow’s web site and keep tabs on the war in Iraq by way of the agonist.org and another blog from a civilian in Kuwait, (which I don’t have handy at the moment.) I’m also familiar with the User Friendly web site, although I really only read the comics there.
I have searched for blogs on Theology in general and Interfaith Theology in particular and have come up empty handed. So I’m going to speak up in the void. I’m a Unitarian Universalist ministerial student attending a Methodist seminary. I spent six years with the Hare Krishna movement, and have practiced Native American spiritual traditions for the last thirteen years or so.
How about some questions to stir things up and test the one thing I’m curious about when it comes to blogs: how much feedback will a little voice like mine generate…
Where and/or when do you most readily experience the presence of God or Divinity or the Majesty of Nature?
If there is a God, is that God compassionate? How/where do you perceive that divine compassion in the world today?
Should religious institutions be involved in politics?
That aught to be enough to stir things up a bit…
